Are you who you want to be? Is this where you envisioned yourself to be at your age? Have you superceded your own expectations, or are you waiting for life to truly begin? I have asked myself these questions lately in an attempt to evaluate my life. So far, twenty-six seems to be the age of reflection and redirection. No more blind hopes for tomorrow and making plans and not following through with them. That seems to be a real problem for me- to plot something out and then not act upon it. Not sure why I do it either.

No more am I going to stop myself from succeeding, I have thus concluded. I don't need to be my own worst enemy. Why wait for life to begin when you are not living the one that you already have. That is my true goal for this year and for all the ones that follow it. I'm not going to have a better paying job if I don't apply for one. I'm not going to see the world if I don't get on that plane. I'm not going to be published if I don't write that book.

Am I saying that it's not going to be hard work? Of course it's hard work. So much of my life has been about helping others that I haven't truly forced myself to live the life that I want to. I'm sick and tired of setting goals for myself and then not following through with them. No more. But of course, easier said than done. Every journey begins with a single step. It's time for me to put one foot in front of the other.

What started this sudden change of thought, you may ask. I have to say that it has to do with seeing friends of my getting married and starting a family. People I used to joke around with are settling down and getting serious with life. It's my turn. The way I feel is that we have but one go around on this planet and I feel like I'm just collecting dust. I'm not going to be the guy at the ten year reunion who was the same person he was when he graduated. And thirty is just around the corner.

Anyway, I just had to get that off my chest. I hope you guys have a good day. Take care.